Faith talk


Questioning Membership

On Monday I went to a meeting where Bishop Sally Dyck and Cindy Gregorson presented reflections on a road tour they had across our conference in the fall. It was a good meeting, but something someone shared has stuck in my mind more than any of the things that Bishop or Cindy shared.

In reflecting on “membership” this pastor talked about another pastor who has helped a church move to annual membership where everyone renews their membership yearly. It reminds me of a covenantal model with a renewing of the covenant yearly.

This got me asking and wondering exactly how we view membership. I think far too often we think of membership as an end and not a process or journey. Too often membership becomes a defining line with a clear demarcation of who is “inside” and “outside” that demarcation.

I am wondering if this is others experience. If membership were emphasized within a covenantal model with annual renewal would it change? Is “membership” relevant anymore? Do we need this “measurement” or do the boundaries that it creates actually inhibit us from being truly open to everyone?

What do you think?


Redemption Reflections

So yesterday my wife and kids were outside playing in our driveway and my wife took some wonderful pictures. I looked over the pictures after uploading them last night and some of my youngest son Kai caught my eye. It wasn’t the inclusion of my son that caught my attention but rather the other subject of the picture: the beaten up and used trike.

You see that trike has an interesting story. It was almost six years ago that I was taking our trash out to the apartment complex dump when I noticed some cast-off “kids” stuff. We were new parents and didn’t exactly have tons of money living off a teacher’s salary and student loans, so I did what my mother would have done: I looked it over to see if we could use anything. I took two things back to our apartment: a toy guitar and a trike. The trike was missing its handlebar covers and was pretty worn but it rolled on the ground nice and we figured our son Micah would enjoy it. He did and so it made the trip back to MN with us when we moved home and has stayed with us. Now it is being used again by our youngest son and he is getting joy from rolling down the driveway through the power of his two legs.

As I sat and reflected on the pictures I couldn’t help but think about redemption and the life of faith. In a small way this trike is a reminder to me of my own life in God. God saw something in me when others couldn’t; namely my father. God took me in and said I had value when others didn’t; namely my father.

I think about how easily my life could be defined by the initial rejection of my father and how my story could have had its end there: cast-off and rejected like the trike sitting in the apartment dump. That easily could have been my story. A story of rejection. But just as that trike was redeemed from the dump by me because I saw value, so my story has also been redeemed by God.

Sometimes I wonder if we miss that good news: our rejections don’t define us. we are redeemed.

Thoughts on Jealousy

Thoughts on Jealousy

So I have been thinking about jealousy a bunch lately.  With two young boys (Micah-5 years and Kai-18 months) you can’t help but see how jealousy plays into human interaction.  For instance, watching how our children react when the other child is getting exclusive attention from one of us can be a moment of entertainment, but it is also clearly brings to life the reality of jealousy.

The other month while my wife was getting ready in the morning, Kai was fussing and so I was holding him. I could see the jealousy in Micah’s eyes as he looked at us and was not surprised when Micah then tried to nuzzle his way into my lap and get between Kai and I.  This has happened numerous times and of course Kai has exhibited some of the same behaviors when he sees Stacy and Micah spending exclusive time together. He often will go over to where they are or start to cry because he isn’t getting the attention.

We often think of jealousy as a bad thing, but I wonder. Now don’t get me wrong, jealousy often brings out ugly things in us. However, is the root of jealousy really all that bad. As I have been reading through the Old Testament, God is often described as a “jealous” God and that is what has me wondering. At the core jealousy comes because of a deep sense of consuming love where we want the object of our love all to ourselves. We want all of that person or thing, we want 100% of its focus on us and I think this reflects how much God desires our attention and how consuming God’s love is for us.

Can we learn from our jealousy? Can we remember the words of the Old Testament and when we feel jealousy remember God’s jealousy for us and have our hearts turned back towards the one who created and loves us so deeply?

I am reminded of the lyrics of How He Loves by David Crowder Band:

He is jealous for me

Loves like a hurricane I am a tree

Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy

When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory

And I realize just how beautiful You are and how great Your affections are for me

And oh, How He loves us

Oh, oh how He loves us

How He loves us all.

Fatherhood and Manhood

First before I go into the heart of this post, I have a prayer request for anyone who reads this post.  Please keep in your prayers Adam and Sarah Walker Cleaveland, who just lost their twin boys (Micah and Judah) who were born at 20 weeks and couldn’t survive.  It was at Adam’s blog that I first encountered this video.

So nothing is closer to my heart/life than the issue of fatherhood/manhood. You see I grew up in a single parent household with just my mother.  Let me tell you that my mother is an amazing woman and I can’t imagine life being differently then it was and I don’t think I am screwed up because I didn’t have a father growing up.  Still, I would be lying if I didn’t say that it had an impact on my life.  I always wondered what was wrong with me that my father didn’t want to have anything to do with me.  I also knew that the one thing God called me to more than anything else was to be a father and to break the cycle.

So that is the background and here is the reason why I want to write about this video: nothing bothers me more than the construction of one type of fatherhood being “biblical” and all else being something other than what God intended.  I wrote a whole paper on it in seminary where I explored those of faith who wrote about fatherhood (by the way sadly most of the books only came at fatherhood from one framework and often that also came with a construct of “manhood” being the same thing as “fatherhood”…which means many who might not have that framework are staying silent on a very important issue…who knows maybe they are out there and I just didn’t find them).

Most of the views I came upon align with the framework Mark Driscoll is coming from in his response to the question posed. It is that view that I want to respond to, but first I want to say that I have tremendous respect for Mark Driscoll.  I disagree with him on many things, but I respect him.  Having met him while I was in college and having conversations with him, I can truly say that I believe that he is a man who is after God’s heart.  I think he has helped many people discover Christ and move closer to God and unlike some I am unwilling to say that because he has a different framework/worldview that he is leading people astray.

On this matter though I think he is wrong and here is why:

(1)  First and foremost to take the passage from Timothy that is quoted by both him and his wife out of its context and to apply to a certain understood construct of family is problematic in my view.  The passage he quotes, 1 Timothy 5:8, is in the midst of a paragraph of instruction that Paul is giving to Timothy about care for widows.  The passage specifically is dealing with those widows who have family members (in this case children and grandchildren) who were called to take care of them according to their faith.  What it wasn’t saying was that “fathers who don’t make a paycheck have denied their faith and are worse than unbelievers.” Could one take the prescription directed at the children and grandchildren of widows and then apply it as such? Yes, but then we get into some deeper questions of pushing interpretation.  Driscoll states it with such conviction and clarity in a way that communicates that it is obvious that that statement is directed at fathers and dealing with the role within the marriage/family economy.

Which brings me to a different subject.  I am curious what their understanding of care for the elderly would be? What is our role in caring for widows? Do we care for widows? I don’t have an answer, but I would hope that individuals who aren’t caring for their mothers/grandmothers would get a serious chastisement and fall under church discipline with the same vigor.

(2) What is provision? To argue that provision is the same as being the sole income provider within the family economy is faulty in my opinion. A father can and is a provider even if they are not the income producer. A father can have authority (which I would argue a different conception of authority than the “you will submit to me that some think”) while still not being the income producer. What seems to be at work here more than anything is a certain construction that goes very deep: A man’s worth as a man is equal to what he produces, if he doesn’t “produce” then he is no longer a man as defined biblically. I find that so faulty though, to me a man’s worth appears to come from God and is found in how that individual seeks to grow closer to God and to help others (like their family) grow closer to God.

(3) The myth of statistics. Driscoll is using statistics as a buttress to his argument, but why? If it is simply a matter of being “biblical” or “unbiblical” then statistics shouldn’t be needed. In fact if one is arguing so hard against the perverted culture that permeates the world then to rely on statistics is to by and large also depend on that “perverted culture” to buttress your arguments when it helps your argument. The lives of humans are not easy to isolate. Want to know why? You can’t get a control. Yes, there are too many variables for one to just use one variable as an argument for why it is right. Yes, those statistics to point to a reality, but do they also take into consideration economic class, neighborhood safety, influences, etc. (you could go on and on) Human relationships and outcomes are complex because we are lives are complex.

Can we get to the heart of the matter?

The real heart of the matter is are parents invested in their kids lives? Do they give of themselves so that their children grow up nurtured and cared for and thus prepared for life. We can rail on manhood, fatherhood, gender-roles, etc., but until we deal with the real heart of the matter which is selfishness then we are failing to name the real culprit. If a man wants to be a stay-at-home dad because well he doesn’t want to work and he thinks it is easier to be a stay-at-home dad and he doesn’t take that role within the family seriously then yeah it is a problem, but no more a problem than if a woman did it. If parents are constantly looking for others to watch their kids because they want to live “their” lives either as individuals or as a couple then yeah it is a problem. But if the parents are seeking to be parents and to provide for their children like God has provided for us, then it doesn’t matter if they are gay, straight, stay-at-home dads, both working, etc.

I should be rebuked if I am shirking my responsibilities as a father and I should be shown my error, but that isn’t about whether I am the money-maker or not it is about if I am being a provider like God has provided for us as God’s children.

Winona 360 Update w/Links

While my blog has been neglected, I have been doing weekly articles for Winona 360. This has pushed me to meet deadlines (something that I have not done successfully the last 3 weeks due to ordination and job responsibilities) and to make sure I have a weekly article (this has been done). It has been a great experience so far, even though I have no clue whatsoever if anyone is reading them at all (outside the editor).

Here they are in order with links:

1/27: Reflection on Tim Tebow ad controversy (before the ad aired and was uncontroversial)

2/3: Reflection on Politics and Faith

2/12: Reflection on Christian and Secular Music

2/18: A Reflection on Lent

2/25: Reflection on local variety show