And so this is still a live promise. It wasn’t canceled at the time of Joshua; otherwise, God wouldn’t keep renewing the appointment for “today.” The promise of “arrival” and “rest” is still there for God’s people. God himself is at rest. And at the end of the journey we’ll surely rest with God. So let’s keep at it and eventually arrive at the place of rest, not drop out through some sort of disobedience. (Hebrews 4:8-11 The Message)
It is interesting how God moves in unexpected ways. I went to Exploration to encourage others and to be a part of that discernment process through sharing my experiences and thoughts. I went expecting to help others (which I hope I did), but in the end I left with a renewed sense of my own call.
Its hard to describe, but I feel like I have been wandering in my own little desert like the Israelites did between Egypt and the promised land. Like the Israelites longing to go back to Egypt, I have been playing with thoughts of longing to go back to the days of simple labor like I had at BH Electronics as an inventory control clerk. I have been struggling to see the promised land, to see that God is still on this journey and has given us a “live promise.” Just like Israel, I couldn’t see the possibilities in the promised land, I was only caught up in the day to day life of ministry and not able to see the future.
It is hard to say this, but I felt like I was going to Exploration following a path like Moses, unable to enter the promised land but able to see it and to pass on the leadership to Joshua. However, God sometimes has different plans. I went seeing an end but God meant it for a beginning. Shalom Agtarap shared an insight that captures it well in her message on Sunday morning when she asked, “Have you ever mistaken the beginning of something with the end?”
Seeing all of these fellow young adults (6-13 years younger than me….man I am getting old) excited about God and wrestling with their call reminded me the future is bright when it is in God’s hands. God is with us on this journey but so often it is easy to forget that and to only think about and focus on our “misery” from day to day. The truth is that leading the church in the midst of this paradigm shift (see Bob Farr Renovate or Die) is not going to be easy and many people really cannot see what the “promised land” looks like and so they will long for the way things were back in “Egypt.” It isn’t going to be easy, but after spending this 48 hours with fellow young clergy, and other young Christians hearing God’s call and responding, I am assured that this is where God has called me.
God has called me to this difficult but amazing work and I am assured that God is with me. These are my final reflections on Exploration, but I do not think these reflections are just for me. My hope is that those who read this might see the possibilities of how God can move in unexpected ways if we listen for the “whisper” for as Adam Hamilton shared on Friday night, “God hardly ever shouts…God whispers.”